I have no money, but thats ok because I think things are working out.
I learned stuff about someone, and I am starting somethig new with someone.
This could just turn into something.
I also need to be honest with someone.
Mack and I are working hard, trying to dedicate as much time as possible to music. It just sucks when you know certain friends dont support you. Oh well, all we can do is prove them wrong.
If I had $2000 I think I would be just perfect and content.
Aside from the fact that I have no idea what I'm going to do about school, or ff i'll have to repeat this year over.
My life is a jigsaw puzzle, and the pieces are coming together.
I want to see what the final picture is.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I Am The Captain Of An Oil Tanker, Running Through Your Veins
I have come to realize how over rated a lot of things that people talk about and discuss are. For instance, the Swine Flu. Everyone and their grandma was worried about it, yet I dont really know anyone personal or in general that even had it in our area of Milwaukee..
I also heard around the news almost everyday leading up to April 1st about this virus that was supposed to take over computers, and how Microsoft had a $250,000 reward for whoever found out who had created the deadly virus. Sure enough, April 1st came and went and I still have heard anything about it. Its the end of May..
So many people are full of shit these days, and I have come to realize I see it more in teenage girls then anyone else.
Sometimes I start to think that guys may ACTUALLY care about relationships and things along those lines a lot more then girls do.
Now now, I know this sounds unrealistic because of how horny guys are and Im sure girls do get screwed over a lot, but at least my friends and I are genuine.....to a point ha. (everyone has their moments)
For example, about a few weeks ago two of my close friends and myself all got shitted on by girls we all had some sort of feelings for.
I gave a girl I liked (and thought liked me) a stuffed animal for her birthday. When we hung out, she barely even aknowledged me. I dont understand how someone can be so flirty and outgoing, then the next minute treat you like a complete stranger. Am I angry? Not at all. All I want is understanding.
One of my friends ex-girlfriends discussed having sex with him, both of them were virgins. She continually told him that she was not ready and that they should wait. Being the genuine guy that he is, he agreed to this. Months later when they talk about this again, she admits that she had done it with two differnt people in that waiting time period. He doesn't get pissed over this, but he is still very upset.
Finally, the same day that I saw the girl that I like, my friend and I drove to a dance to pick up the girl that he liked. We drove all the way to the school and waited in the parking lot at around 10:30 at night. As the people flood into the parking lot, my friends anticipation builds. He soon after recieves a text saying that she had no interest in coming with us, that she wanted to now go to Taco Bell with her friends. My friend didn't even get an invite to join her.
As I said before, I do not think that guys are in any way perfect, no one is. We are all merely humans.
But I personally feel that girls are becoming less emotional and caring, and this is a cause for concern.
I want to know for my friends and for myself if there are any girls that do care, and are mature enough to see other peoples feelings.
Where are you??
I also heard around the news almost everyday leading up to April 1st about this virus that was supposed to take over computers, and how Microsoft had a $250,000 reward for whoever found out who had created the deadly virus. Sure enough, April 1st came and went and I still have heard anything about it. Its the end of May..
So many people are full of shit these days, and I have come to realize I see it more in teenage girls then anyone else.
Sometimes I start to think that guys may ACTUALLY care about relationships and things along those lines a lot more then girls do.
Now now, I know this sounds unrealistic because of how horny guys are and Im sure girls do get screwed over a lot, but at least my friends and I are genuine.....to a point ha. (everyone has their moments)
For example, about a few weeks ago two of my close friends and myself all got shitted on by girls we all had some sort of feelings for.
I gave a girl I liked (and thought liked me) a stuffed animal for her birthday. When we hung out, she barely even aknowledged me. I dont understand how someone can be so flirty and outgoing, then the next minute treat you like a complete stranger. Am I angry? Not at all. All I want is understanding.
One of my friends ex-girlfriends discussed having sex with him, both of them were virgins. She continually told him that she was not ready and that they should wait. Being the genuine guy that he is, he agreed to this. Months later when they talk about this again, she admits that she had done it with two differnt people in that waiting time period. He doesn't get pissed over this, but he is still very upset.
Finally, the same day that I saw the girl that I like, my friend and I drove to a dance to pick up the girl that he liked. We drove all the way to the school and waited in the parking lot at around 10:30 at night. As the people flood into the parking lot, my friends anticipation builds. He soon after recieves a text saying that she had no interest in coming with us, that she wanted to now go to Taco Bell with her friends. My friend didn't even get an invite to join her.
As I said before, I do not think that guys are in any way perfect, no one is. We are all merely humans.
But I personally feel that girls are becoming less emotional and caring, and this is a cause for concern.
I want to know for my friends and for myself if there are any girls that do care, and are mature enough to see other peoples feelings.
Where are you??
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Excitement, Embarrassment, and Friendship
Im still recovering from the longest weekend ever.
THURSDAY
It all started when I got ungrounded from all my stuff. The penalty was I had to take my gauges out, which are basically closed up. Kinda sucks, but my car and phone are much more important.
At the end of the day, Mack picked me up and we (Mack, Jorden, Matt and I) drove around causing mischief and mayhem. We were bored, and decided it would be funny to fuck around with Tim as usual. We really couldnt decide what to actually do though.
Then it hit us. Put a shopping cart on his front lawn.
We drove to the Walgreens close to my house and stole one, then put it in his front lawn.
It was the funniest fucking thing ever to us at the time.
We dropped Jorden off, and found another cart along with four traffic cones to put on his lawn.
We decided to do this another night and I had Mack and Matt drop me off at home. I still heard them outside and I looked to discover that they had set the cart and traffic cones up on my lawn.
FUCK NO.
I drove to Macks, and set everything up on his and waited for him to arrive home. I laughed hard to myself as he pulled into his driveway.
I drove past shouting insults as I drove away, very pleased with myself.
FRIDAY
I wake up to find 12 traffic cones and a shopping cart on my front lawn, along with a text message from Mack reading "PWN3D".
This is a fucking war.
Mack was on summer vacation now so he was able to get me back. I skipped school and called Jorden who was also home for the day and told him what happened. We quickly formulated the plan that we would collect more things for Mack's lawn and drop them off for the ultimate ownage.
We drove around for about an hour, ending up with a total of 30 traffic cones, a yard sale sign, a shopping cart, and a flag from a golf course.
Jorden then called Mack, asking for a ride to the bank. Mack informed him that he was just getting ready in the bathroom. We sped there and quickly unloaded the great haul and set it up. Right when we were finished, Mack sees us in the window and is infuriated with what we have done. He walks out, impressed with the job.
Now what do we do with all of this stuff?
TIMS HOUSE.
We drive there and set it up, incredibly happy with what we have just done.
As we are driving to Jorden's house so we can get his checks, we run out of gas.
FUCKKKK. We walk to the gas station ten blocks away and buy a gas tank, then proceed to walk back.
After cashing the checks, filling up my tank and buying subway, we all split ways.
To keep it quick and simple, after this I went to the Greendale prom with my friend Lisa and was put until 3:30.
SATURDAY
The SBS show was good, but Snapdragon Records fucking sucks the way they set things up.
The show was fun though, getting to see a lot of people and playing 500 with a couple of the people from another band was great. We got some money to buy "juice" for a "get together" Steve was having at his house later on.
It was fun, and I got to know Tom (SBS' band manager) a lot better, super cool guy.
Sammy was hilarious. And incident with a girl happened with Tim and Jorden which I will not repeat, unless asked about privately (Although if you are friends with my friends yoyu already know)
No sleep at all.
SUNDAY
I spent the day doiong yard work (Cutting down a fucking bush and digging the root out).
My dad let me go out that night where I slept at Steve's once again for another "get together" with all the rest of the "juice".
There was a whole different crowd that night, and a girl from Steve's work along with her friend who was attractive. Being under a "sugar rush" along with everyone else, I got a little close with her. A very gross thing happened to her, which I again wont say because it is a bit private but you probably already know.
I went to Denny's with Mack and Tom, then returned to Steve's for no sleep.
MONDAY
STAYED HOME, DIDNT DO SHIT.
I cant decide how to say how I felt about this weekend. It was amazing, yet horrible at the same time.
I guess it all depends on your view on life and who's shoes you were in at the time.
THURSDAY
It all started when I got ungrounded from all my stuff. The penalty was I had to take my gauges out, which are basically closed up. Kinda sucks, but my car and phone are much more important.
At the end of the day, Mack picked me up and we (Mack, Jorden, Matt and I) drove around causing mischief and mayhem. We were bored, and decided it would be funny to fuck around with Tim as usual. We really couldnt decide what to actually do though.
Then it hit us. Put a shopping cart on his front lawn.
We drove to the Walgreens close to my house and stole one, then put it in his front lawn.
It was the funniest fucking thing ever to us at the time.
We dropped Jorden off, and found another cart along with four traffic cones to put on his lawn.
We decided to do this another night and I had Mack and Matt drop me off at home. I still heard them outside and I looked to discover that they had set the cart and traffic cones up on my lawn.
FUCK NO.
I drove to Macks, and set everything up on his and waited for him to arrive home. I laughed hard to myself as he pulled into his driveway.
I drove past shouting insults as I drove away, very pleased with myself.
FRIDAY
I wake up to find 12 traffic cones and a shopping cart on my front lawn, along with a text message from Mack reading "PWN3D".
This is a fucking war.
Mack was on summer vacation now so he was able to get me back. I skipped school and called Jorden who was also home for the day and told him what happened. We quickly formulated the plan that we would collect more things for Mack's lawn and drop them off for the ultimate ownage.
We drove around for about an hour, ending up with a total of 30 traffic cones, a yard sale sign, a shopping cart, and a flag from a golf course.
Jorden then called Mack, asking for a ride to the bank. Mack informed him that he was just getting ready in the bathroom. We sped there and quickly unloaded the great haul and set it up. Right when we were finished, Mack sees us in the window and is infuriated with what we have done. He walks out, impressed with the job.
Now what do we do with all of this stuff?
TIMS HOUSE.
We drive there and set it up, incredibly happy with what we have just done.
As we are driving to Jorden's house so we can get his checks, we run out of gas.
FUCKKKK. We walk to the gas station ten blocks away and buy a gas tank, then proceed to walk back.
After cashing the checks, filling up my tank and buying subway, we all split ways.
To keep it quick and simple, after this I went to the Greendale prom with my friend Lisa and was put until 3:30.
SATURDAY
The SBS show was good, but Snapdragon Records fucking sucks the way they set things up.
The show was fun though, getting to see a lot of people and playing 500 with a couple of the people from another band was great. We got some money to buy "juice" for a "get together" Steve was having at his house later on.
It was fun, and I got to know Tom (SBS' band manager) a lot better, super cool guy.
Sammy was hilarious. And incident with a girl happened with Tim and Jorden which I will not repeat, unless asked about privately (Although if you are friends with my friends yoyu already know)
No sleep at all.
SUNDAY
I spent the day doiong yard work (Cutting down a fucking bush and digging the root out).
My dad let me go out that night where I slept at Steve's once again for another "get together" with all the rest of the "juice".
There was a whole different crowd that night, and a girl from Steve's work along with her friend who was attractive. Being under a "sugar rush" along with everyone else, I got a little close with her. A very gross thing happened to her, which I again wont say because it is a bit private but you probably already know.
I went to Denny's with Mack and Tom, then returned to Steve's for no sleep.
MONDAY
STAYED HOME, DIDNT DO SHIT.
I cant decide how to say how I felt about this weekend. It was amazing, yet horrible at the same time.
I guess it all depends on your view on life and who's shoes you were in at the time.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Re-Birth
So I fucked up mpre then ever before.
Kicked out of school.
FML
I might have to re-do my Junior year, and no matter what I'm going to Bay View High School next year.
Its all my fault, but the sad thing is that I was expecting all of this, so I'm not really all that shocked.
Everything was going so great. I had my birthday, and right after that I got sick with the flu for almost a week. Right when I got better, I went to Florida with my class and had an amazing time. I got back and Saved By Stereo asked me to be their merch guy again and I said yeah. The following weekend after that, I went to both of their shows, and the big Fall Out Boy show.
Life has been great. Ive been seeing all of my friends more then ever and I feel closer then ever with Mack and Jorden.
Hell, I was even starting to talk to girls that seemed interested in me.
But then my school called my dad informing him I was failing all my classes and missing a huge final project. I was asked to finish the year and not return.
Dont get me wrong, I'm not stupid. Not to sound cocky at all, but I could be on the honor roll and everything. Ask my friends and family.
Its just hard when you have no motivation to actually DO good, and when you see no point.
Im also grounded from internet, friends, my car, and my phone.
Mack was going to start teaching me bass so I could maybe play in his band. Theres also a ton of shows coming up for SBS that I need to be at, not to mention summer vacation is right around the corner.
Maybe my parents will le me off easy eventually. Who knows.
All I know is Im starting over.
Kicked out of school.
FML
I might have to re-do my Junior year, and no matter what I'm going to Bay View High School next year.
Its all my fault, but the sad thing is that I was expecting all of this, so I'm not really all that shocked.
Everything was going so great. I had my birthday, and right after that I got sick with the flu for almost a week. Right when I got better, I went to Florida with my class and had an amazing time. I got back and Saved By Stereo asked me to be their merch guy again and I said yeah. The following weekend after that, I went to both of their shows, and the big Fall Out Boy show.
Life has been great. Ive been seeing all of my friends more then ever and I feel closer then ever with Mack and Jorden.
Hell, I was even starting to talk to girls that seemed interested in me.
But then my school called my dad informing him I was failing all my classes and missing a huge final project. I was asked to finish the year and not return.
Dont get me wrong, I'm not stupid. Not to sound cocky at all, but I could be on the honor roll and everything. Ask my friends and family.
Its just hard when you have no motivation to actually DO good, and when you see no point.
Im also grounded from internet, friends, my car, and my phone.
Mack was going to start teaching me bass so I could maybe play in his band. Theres also a ton of shows coming up for SBS that I need to be at, not to mention summer vacation is right around the corner.
Maybe my parents will le me off easy eventually. Who knows.
All I know is Im starting over.
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