If My Heart Was A House, Then You Would Be Home

Despite it really being almost halfway over, Its finally starting to feel like summer.

The care free days are starting and summer school will be over soon. All of my friends are on tour, but they come back tomorrow. I couldnt be more excited to see them all again and share stories, as well as listen to their's from the road. Even though they have been gone, I love that I am spending so much time with Jorden. His friends Nick and Anna are a lot cooler than I thought and I really want to get to know them a lot better. Im also re-kindling my friendship with Chelsea Kaiser and other people such as Linda. Harrison is awesome as well :]

I drove to Madison yesterday to see a metal show, which consisted of August Burns Red, iwrestledabearonce, Enter Shakiri and Bless The Fall. I saw Bless The Fall onced before, and I wasnt too impressed by them. Hearing Enter Shakiri for the first time was amazng, they are so good. Of course, August Burns Red and iwrestledabearonce were amazing and it felt good to be listening to metal again. I even threw down a little bit. On the way there, we met two kids named Tatum and Harry who were really cool.

Speaking of music, I have fallen even more in love with Owl City. Their new album Ocean Eyes along with a music video came out a few days ago. The synth lines and melodies make me want to float away, in search of a girl that matches the lyrics. Yes, still single. Still lonely... But I ramin hopeful and optimistic as always, because that is quite possibly the best way to live life in my opinion. Live in the moment, and stay positive.

I also started talking to Janet a lot through texting and myspace and today we actually sat and talked. I wish I would have gotten to know her better sooner. We have so much in common and get along so well. Shes positive and actually listens, and I feel like I can help her with her problems. Im always happy to have great new friends like that.

Living The Dream 8)

I <3 music more than anything on this planet. I really wanna learn how to play synth and get good at using programs. I have always loved metal and rock music, but Im listening to so much electronic music and mainly pop punk bands that use synth (FTSK, Motion City Soundtrack). It is seriously becoming my favorite type of music, especially considering how much I love Owl City. I have a lot of ideas in my head, its just I have no way to write them musically because I haven't learned that skill yet. Im hoping by next summer everything falls into place with what I want.

Ive been running a lot lately and actually eating a little bit healthier than usual.Im back to weighing less than 200 pounds again, which makes me happy. Im ok with going to Bay View despite how alone I will be, because I will be running cross country with MHSA, which many of my close friends are on. Im excited to become healthy!

Another amazing thing happened mainly today. Saved By Stereo went out of state for the first time, and I got to go along. Im supposed to go for the whole tour, but I have summer school. I had a lot of fun and I think they all really like how I do eveything. The setuip today looked really badass, we sold $100 worth of merch, made some friends and of course, the show was amazing. Probably on e of the best sounding shows they have done (except the vocals could have been a teency bit louder). Mack also did good, despite how bad he thinks he did.

I cant wait until August when summer school is over so I can go on their second tour.

Bring In The Tides

Summer school is about half way done, and I couldn't be happier. Despite the fact that I need to wake up everyday early for it and miss out on certain things ( like go on tour with SBS), I gotta say Im pretty proud of myself. I always knew I could do good, I was just in a small lazy rut that I couldn't get out of. But none the less, Im doing great and Im happy. I dont even mind going to Bay View next year. I think Im going to join their cross country team, thats someting that I have always wanted to do.

Speaking of which, I really want to start running. It would help me get prepared for it and I would be a lot healthier/skinnier.

I like how much I have been seeing my friends this summer. I feel like Im getting really close with people that I have lost touch with, along with making tons of new friends and making the bonds of my current ones even stronger. The only thing that I wish would be better is that we all could party more and go to more far away places. Theres still two months of summer left, so we shall see.

In other news, I enjoy doing things on a whim, Ive always been this way. So saying yes to a girl I barely know asking me out seemed logical in my opinion. Why not? Its summer.

More tomorrow, Im sleepy.

P.S. I think it would be cool to make a long blog about all the people I care about. I will be doing that soon.

Butterflies

Butterflies are beautiful and free, and this is how my life is becoming.

My life has been grand for the most part lately, and I am quite happy to say that I am becoming more accepting and chill with things with each passing day. I enjoy little things and get less frustrated with things and when I do become angry I feel bad right away and apologize. This has been happening mostly with my brother, and I really shouldnt be so angry with him. He has a hard enough time with everything as it is and he needs to know that I really do love him and care about him. I have also gotten increasingly close with my mom and dad, which makes me happy.

In other news, I recently got a $600 Honda Spree moped from my mom. So amazing, and great. It has already saved me money which I already dont have which is a large help. I also got out of debt with my parents and with everything else and my parents finally sold my grandmas house so they are in an increasingly better mood each day.

Hell, I dont even mind waking up for summer school each and everyday. Im smart so its extremely easy, and I feel good helping people who dont actually know as much as me. My english teacher even said "You read well and you exceed my standards as to how much everyone should write on their assignments. You are so smart, how did you fail?". Im actually trying really hard to get evereything the way it should be, to make everything normal again.

As for seeing my friends, I see each and every one of them almost every day despite how much I go to school and work. I feel loved by them even more, and I find more and more people liking me than I even imagined they did. I've always had such bad self esteem issues and if only they could know how great it is for me to feel accepted and liked/loved as much as I am. I never want to lose any of them.

Finally, probably the best thing that has happened in this past month was when I saw Owl City perform at Summerfest. As mostly everyone knows, they are my favorite music group. They make me look at life a completely different way and make me happy to be alive. To make me want to continue living everyday to the fullest. Not only did I get to finally see them live after six months of waiting, but my friends ACTUALLY managed to get backstage passes. I literally began to tear up when I was watching them play from the side of the stage. Not to mention, Adam Young is probably the kindest, most simplistic human being I have ever met.

Im just so happy, I cant believe it. The only thing missing from this string of enjoyment is a girl. I still am in search of an amazing girl who I can sweep off their feet. Who I can make as happy as I am. Maybe my luck will continue and my happiness will mbe complete. :]