Rambling

So for the entire time span that I have liked Owl City, there has never been a Wikipedia page for him. I always would search for him but I never had any results. Ever since Ocean Eyes came out he has gotten much more popular, where basically everyone knows who he is, but of course barely any of the people who have heard of him know any of his songs, besides the singles. It doesn't make me as annoyed as It used to, mainly because Im happy because hes becoming successful for himself. His music has really made me a much more positive and optimistic person. I decided a while ago that I wanted to get a tattoo, but I couldn't decide what I want until recently when I had an amazing idea. Its going to be on my forearm, opposite of my elbow. Its going to be a skyline with an owl in flight in front of the skyscrapers. Im ecstatic about this idea, and would really like someone to sketch it up for me.

Even though I have this tattoo and a few others in mind that I really want, its going to be a while before I can get them. Everyone has always told me that the last year of waiting to be 18 goes by fast. I've never really been excited about being 18, like it was never that big of a thing until now. I've just been thinking about how much everything is going to change for everyone. I know that Steve and Jorden will be there, but Im not sure who else. Everyone has different paths planned out depending on their talents and skills. Thats another thing that makes me worried, the fact that I can't decide what to do with my life. I used to have so many ideas and thoughts but I feel like I gave up with everything too early. A lot of people don't realize that I used to want to be an actor, an artist and a guitar player. I was actually going somewhere with acting and art but I just kind of gave up and I hate it. How come every time I have something going for me I get scared and give up?

Rational Thinking

So its been about a month since I have actually written anything. Once again, I wanted to write more but I was so busy with life that I couldn't really find any time, either that or I wasn't in the mood. Lets catch up, shall we?

I finally finished summer school, passed with an A and a B. Im getting my motivation back and I can see me doing well this year. Im not stressing about school starting, although no one really is. I have been sleeping over a lot at peoples houses and enjoying the occasional party, with more happening than usual.

A lot of changes have been happening though with my friends. They aren't necessarily BAD changes, but they aren't the best. I have been hanging out with different people than I usually do a lot latlely and I like it a lot. Steve and Jorden are still my main men and I love them, but I feel distant from other people like Mack and Sammy. I dont know why Mack and I haven't been speaking and I already bitch to Sammy countless times that he needs to remember that Alex isn't his only friend. Altogether, I have who I need and I am quite satisfied with the adventures that lie ahead.