Butterflies

Butterflies are beautiful and free, and this is how my life is becoming.

My life has been grand for the most part lately, and I am quite happy to say that I am becoming more accepting and chill with things with each passing day. I enjoy little things and get less frustrated with things and when I do become angry I feel bad right away and apologize. This has been happening mostly with my brother, and I really shouldnt be so angry with him. He has a hard enough time with everything as it is and he needs to know that I really do love him and care about him. I have also gotten increasingly close with my mom and dad, which makes me happy.

In other news, I recently got a $600 Honda Spree moped from my mom. So amazing, and great. It has already saved me money which I already dont have which is a large help. I also got out of debt with my parents and with everything else and my parents finally sold my grandmas house so they are in an increasingly better mood each day.

Hell, I dont even mind waking up for summer school each and everyday. Im smart so its extremely easy, and I feel good helping people who dont actually know as much as me. My english teacher even said "You read well and you exceed my standards as to how much everyone should write on their assignments. You are so smart, how did you fail?". Im actually trying really hard to get evereything the way it should be, to make everything normal again.

As for seeing my friends, I see each and every one of them almost every day despite how much I go to school and work. I feel loved by them even more, and I find more and more people liking me than I even imagined they did. I've always had such bad self esteem issues and if only they could know how great it is for me to feel accepted and liked/loved as much as I am. I never want to lose any of them.

Finally, probably the best thing that has happened in this past month was when I saw Owl City perform at Summerfest. As mostly everyone knows, they are my favorite music group. They make me look at life a completely different way and make me happy to be alive. To make me want to continue living everyday to the fullest. Not only did I get to finally see them live after six months of waiting, but my friends ACTUALLY managed to get backstage passes. I literally began to tear up when I was watching them play from the side of the stage. Not to mention, Adam Young is probably the kindest, most simplistic human being I have ever met.

Im just so happy, I cant believe it. The only thing missing from this string of enjoyment is a girl. I still am in search of an amazing girl who I can sweep off their feet. Who I can make as happy as I am. Maybe my luck will continue and my happiness will mbe complete. :]